Memory Lapse

Every now and then, A memory will surface, Emerging from within, Secretive in purpose. Revealing bits of life, I didn’t know exist, Ashamed of what I’ve done, Things I should resist. They happened in a state, That surely wasn’t me, Inhibitions undiscovered, Exploration; casually. Liquor of deception, Relaxing from inside, Conspiracy of cells, Contempt of what they hide. So far away, All the recollections, Maybe yesterday, Created these perceptions. Save me from myself, Both of me collide, Wading in the ocean, Brought back with evening tide. Putting together days, Making sense of nights, Disgusted with results, Of unrelenting heights. Flashes of men, Getting what they want, Obliging to the fullest, All the while I haunt, A body that I share, With a decent girl, I am the oyster, She is the pearl. I know she knows, That I exist, Who else would have, Slit our wrist. Arriving with the whiskey, Taking it from there, Undo her blouse, Let down her hair, Let go of dreams, Rules and restrictions, Misrepresent, Her derelictions, And when I am tired, I allow her return, Hiding the truth, That she wants to learn.