Me

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This…change in me This…selfish need, this greed Where does it come from? It’s not from above or below, It’s earthy, eccentric…alien to me, And yet it is me! It is wholly me! Why? Why has my mind brushed upon this…phase? Or is it really a phase? Is this really me now? I don’t want to transform into something I hate… I want to transform into something I can… procreate I want to bedazzle you, and them, and he, and she, and….it, But my desires are all for nothing My goals are rotting I am this… other person now I’ve changed I’m not caring anymore No, not like I used to But maybe in a way… I’ve began to…… I’ve began to break… Because it feels good, To just, allow yourself to fall away, For a moment—to feel something… Even if it isn’t genuine, even if it isn’t whole, even if it isn’t right Is it not me? Is it not human? These words they…flow out of me, And… they are truly what I feel at this present moment But what will I feel in a day’s time, In a few years? I want my eyes to be open again, My soul to be open, My dreams to be free I want them to translate into healing poetry I want them to translate into the true me Help me find me… Yes, I would love that… If you would help me find me… ***** this poem, "Me" was composed a little differently than my usual ones. I spoke the words out loud, using a recorder. I was never very good with verbal communication, speaking on the spot. I would like to improve on this, experiment a little on improv…I have written down exactly what I have spoken, with no edits, with the intention of creating a coherent poem. I might do a few of these again. Always, Laura

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David Scott

Date: 1/7/2021 6:56:00 PM

Lovly peace l know what its like to disconect we are so caught up with lifes distracts sometines we get lost along the way heart felt peace tryed doing what you dod at one speacking out not used if open mike myself as dont like own vocie hay looks like you found yours your poem speaks volumes xxx

Laura Breidenthal
Date: 1/8/2021 8:45:00 PM

Thanks for your kind and empathic words, David. You dont know how much it means to me! Im sure your voice sounds wonderful <3 ~Laura

Al Juman

Date: 6/8/2018 1:34:00 AM

was looking for you since a long, long time ago. nice

Laura Breidenthal
Date: 6/10/2018 1:13:00 AM

(: Thanks for passing by! <3~Laura

Maria Williams

Date: 4/1/2018 11:36:00 PM

I love the deep profound words of yours Laura.It is so emotional, your voice delivers the emotion so truly. Poetry at its best, and a fave for me....Maria xx

Laura Breidenthal
Date: 4/2/2018 6:59:00 PM

You're so kind, thanks so much for reading this humble verse. I will be stopping by your page in the morning. I find your verses profound as well.<3Laura

Susan Ashley

Date: 3/30/2018 6:18:00 PM

Laura, I love the dramatic, emotional and captivating reading of your beautifully contemplative poem. So many deep and moving lines in your lovely musings aching for answers to multi-dimensional questions..'Is this really me now? I don't want to transform into something I hate... I want to transform into something I can... procreate. I want to bedazzle you, and them, and he, and she... and it' You bedazzle me Laura, you and your superb poetry of melancholy introspection. Warmest wishes. ~Susan

Laura Breidenthal
Date: 4/2/2018 6:58:00 PM

I have no words...just thank you so much for taking the time to read some of my work. I will be back to your page soon - I find your poetry superb as well. Thank you for making my day! <3~Laura

Frank Sheehan

Date: 3/21/2018 10:43:00 AM

Great poem and reading. It is really transforming. Very creative. Enjoyed immensely.

Laura Breidenthal
Date: 3/21/2018 5:52:00 PM

Thank you so much, Frank. I really appreciate your kindness and visit. <3~Laura

Justin Bordner

Date: 3/16/2018 6:54:00 PM

I like how you weave your worries into a courageous wonderment for what it means to be you, a beautiful Poetess, an inquisitive woman, and sexy soul. You ask questions, and examine dimensions that are at the very root of being, and you also show the grace to look outside of yourself so to better understand the nature within...J.A.B.

Laura Breidenthal
Date: 3/17/2018 1:10:00 AM

I love when your beautiful presence graces my page Justin...thank you. This is what truly happens to me, and I felt the need to record this moment with the intention of it being a poem. I go into this self-examination at such a deep, indescribable level - sometimes despairingly, though through words I can find some hope for myself and the future. I love you much! Thank you for finding the beauty in me<3~Laura

Poet Tacito

Date: 3/12/2018 10:50:00 AM

No you < Know you. We are defined by the choices we make to discover ourselves and understand why. Poignant & truly great lines.

Laura Breidenthal
Date: 3/12/2018 3:45:00 PM

Hey there! The question I have is why do we make certain choices even if they are against what we believe in? Self discovery is interesting, sometimes painful. Been in a pensive mood as of late! Hoping to get back into the swing of things. Thank you so much for the visit. <3~Laura

Silent One

Date: 3/12/2018 7:29:00 AM

Deep poem Laura...

Laura Breidenthal
Date: 3/12/2018 3:41:00 PM

Thanks sweetheart.. sometimes in life i don't recognize myself. Hope it will pass. <3 ~Laura

Arturo Michael

Date: 3/12/2018 6:16:00 AM

This is wonderful... there are no airs here... just feelings...before a change comes conflicting emotions...it must empty before filling up again... All the best Laura

Laura Breidenthal
Date: 3/12/2018 3:39:00 PM

Thank you for your sweet input, Arturo. I always appreciate your visits. <3~Laura