Matters of the Heart

Edge of reality ain't no future here This strange feeling like I never felt before I have punched the boy out of this Man But it ain't the same here and now My world has no sense I a compliant soul to all my fear These demons they won't let go I felt so down these last few weeks The bratrayel by two I thought cared But in essence the fault was mine My struggle to make sense of the statement A man and woman are good friends When the woman is my wife Seems weird but also there has always been insecurities in my life So maybe But not to be honest about a trip to another state Just don't seem right I know I've caused a lot of the trauma But what did I do to deserve this. It's a thought that manifest and corrupts all of me Waking hours have gotten so earlier now I've written more to process this revelation Am I the only one alone in this hurt? Is this concern more then I see She says no and yet I feel yes. Matters of the heart make no sense in my reality.