Making Out You Are There

I’m not bringing up the past, I’m processing memories at long long last things I didn’t realise then making sense shaping opinions prolonged stress no one to turn too a tangled mess my mind burnt through, when life’s too much you just shut down Don’t process sight don’t process sound On auto pilot for basic needs you just shut off no pain no please let things go, and don’t fight back don’t pay attention, interest flacks Personality dies, nothing attracts You live life numb, an easy adapt Overwhelming stress they gave you no one in your life to save you disrespect, they mock your face, no interest to be your saving grace, I changed because I was stuck caught up in the worst of luck No one around me gave a f Out of nowhere I was struck Yet still I couldn’t think those things to busy fighting on my own And knowing what my future brings if I fight to the end alone People said I tell fibs make it up and always have Thinking back they were pricks All they want to do is laugh Falling further fighting hard enemies thwarted in their tracks but I became emotionally starved even though I won the attacks I was winning but I was lonely tiring though I was strong handling all that was thrown me but nowhere did I belong It’s not that people went at me It’s that I had nobody I couldn’t talk or vent you see No friend nor a buddy