Make It Through
Make it through....
There's a GIGANTIC mountain before me that I MUST climb
Its lonely and SCARY & Its soley MINE
Its about moving forward being happy now that your gone
Its about believing in my self
Its about being STRONG
CANT show fear or that your weak
This enourmous mountain has a name and Its GRIEF
IT grabs hold so tight like no other
MY first reaction is to run run for cover
IM going to TRY to conquer the Mountain
For YOU MY precious Mother
DEEP down I know you would hate to she me suffer
I need to put on my game face and get a bit tougher
You have to have the drive and motivation to climb that hill
You have my WORD Mom for you I will
IT would hurt you deep to see me IN so much pain
Yet I CANT control it you know ME
EMOTIONAL thats my middle name
I need to muster all the energy that I have from the inside
This time WONT have your strength as my guide
Without YOU going to be a bumpy ride
In me Your motivating spirit forever lives
A smile on my face and I repeat your words "move forward it is what it is"
THE time is now too Important to hesitate
FOR ME personally a difficult journey to make
Its to you Mom this Trip I dedicate
ALL the wisdom you have shared
OVER the years resonates
When I make it through together we can celebrate
AS I now know Grief effects us all it doesn't discriminate
You have to love yourself enough..
Because Grief doesn't allienate
If you want to TRULY heal
have to be willing to PARTICIPATE
NO time to be sad and withdrawn
ONE thing you have taught me
is That life doesn't wait it carries on
I want to believe and understand that your not coming back
too permanent for me I REFUSE TO accept that
Rather this just a temporary break
Until we MEET beyond heavens gate
LIVING in me there IS a hidden strength
Have to tell myself I am worthy
AND fully competent
I know this about myself
cant let my feelings be denied
If I don't make it
Everything I told you about me
being OK was just a lie
Important I keep MY PROMISES to you
THATS WHAT will help to see me through
I am unprepared to make the journey without YOU by my side
have to JOIN the LIVING
spread my wings and fly
ON this self discovery I will remember all that you GAVE
YOU inspired me until the end
you were smiling strong & brave
I have got a challenge a head of me filled with good times and bad
MISS U SO much you are the BEST FRIEND that I ever had
"you just be YOU don't follow the crowd"
GREAT piece of a advice Mom gonna make you proud
YOU would tell me one step at a time you WILL be OK
DON'T worry about tomorrow
TRY & make it through TODAY
I LONG for your PRESENCE to show me the way
Life goes on thats what youd say
Followed BY "I BELIEVE IN you" & remember tomorrows another day"
I so cherish your words of wisdom
TO me they always MADE perfect sense
NEVER will I forget every precious moment that we spent
Without YOU gonna be a lonely existence
BUT because you would want me to live on I will persavere go the distance
If Ive got anything on my side Its my persistence!
FOR YOU I will go the long way instead of the path of least resistence
Everything in life now more difficult without your existence
For you Mom I will push forward to heal
I Promise I WONT quit
Because in my heart I know thats how you would want it
And whenever I make it to the other side of this Grief and anamosity
I have COMFORT in knowing
MY biggest cheerleader will be there cheering for ME
Copyright © Diana Vee | Year Posted 2016
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