Love Me

Honestly I just wanna feel love...I want it to caress me and hold me in the night and keep the nightmares away....I want this hole in my heart to be filled with something more than hate every single day...I have people that love me dearly but I cant feel there love...Although I see it...Its locked away and I cant free it...I just wanna feel that I'm worthy to be loved...I've took life for granted on such deep levels that the graveyards whisper my name when I walk by...I just wanna Feel...Something...Anything... other than hate from a past lover...The Mourning of my big brother..The Pain I feel from the lost of my Grandmother..oh brother...if you only knew half of the battles that I go thru in my mind..You wouldnt stop crying..but me ..I cant even feel that...I wanna get that feel back..where is that real at...I wanna turn this Anger I feel into love...And since I cant feel it Myself.. I at least would like the chance to give it to someone else...so they can tell me how it feels...How it felt to have it.. Because I done forgot what it feels like to be loved..I wanna feel again