Lost Kid

When u look at me and u realize am not okay And u ask me what's wrong n I just smile with nothing to say Don't pester further cauze I've nothing to tell There's no way I can tell u what's life like in this hell You wouldn't even understand let alone believe U'll think that am just improving my skills to deceive But if u know me too well u will notice am lying And that that's not my euphoric smile am just trying I know u will realize that there's definitely something wrong That beneath the silence is a figure faking to be strong U'll also realize that am afraid of speaking out But if I do, will u handle what all this is about? I know u care and I can only be helped if I share But I don't wanna be helped am good I swear I've been in so much darkness that I don't need light Say used to I need no one to help me in my fight Cauze once upon a time a time I planted this seed And until it bears fruits,, I'll remain a lost kid!