Lost Inspiration

Lost Inspiration - ieL a few years ago, i found someone to chat, to talk, to share my time i can't explain the words of heart i just smile! it felt so right in midst of my agony i saw you! smiling at me i suddenly asked, "why?.. why?" she just said "you inspire" couple of days, months i used to have you, here at my side i didn't know how it works but you totally melt my pride we still stayed as friends even we have this feeling fast pulse, cause we love each other surely! we've hit by a love archer i was so depressed, frustrated you've rejected me to love you tears fell in my eyes without no clue 'cause "I disagree!" your father have said one cold night, i drunk too much i felt so despair, drain my guts i drove my car, so careless i'll hit the bridge! i closed my eyes. . . i woke up early, i'm in a hospital i remembered the accident last night i stood quickly and felt so light there's no mark of wound, in my body and heart i'm on the gate of my home, i stopped and looked it's full of mourning crowd it's impossible to move forward i used the back door to check inside i saw you sitting, crying i tend to touch you, but can't keep moving my heart beats so fast, just like when i see you but i felt not love, but nervous i slowly came near to calm you my feet froze in the ground, it's weird i pushed myself to walk, even to crawl finally got a few inches. to hear you you were apologizing deeply, because of ignoring my feelings you begged for my forgiveness 'cause you truly love me i felt no more pain, nor anger i just smile and want to say "it's okay" but before my words be utter i was shocked, it blew me away i saw myself, lying in front of her sealed in a well craved box, a coffin! i can't believe what happening this was not a dream, nor nightmare! i tried to hold, to embrace my love but my hands passed through her body i shouted and cried to my love but it seemed she can't hear me i'm crying at loud, for someone to feel that now i'm in vain, in so much pain i just want to show my love again for God i wished, make me real! but in the moment of my frustration i heard you whisper, soflty "i love you so much!, for i'll be cherished you and be my inspiration" my heart glows and released joy for i felt your sincerity and love all turned into such admiration for having me in your life i quickly wept my tears away that my love for you was not wasted maybe i'm not exist here, today but i'll live in your heart, forever . .