Lost

I can feel it coming back, That feeling I always dread. It gives me an anxiety attack, And now it's back in my head. I needed your last hug, your last kiss. You were my anti-drug, And i'm horrible at this. I didn't mean all the words that i said. What's said is done though. All those thoughts continue flowing through my head. But I can't let go.. That feeling i have deep down inside. I love you and I lied. Your not pathetic, I was just mad I seemed Apathetic, and Mad that i could have lost something I never really had. You won't take me back and i know that. Just know your all that i have, well had.