Losing Myself

I'm losing myself there is no place to go my life is currently runway show So hectic so full of b.u.l.l.s.h.i.t I want out. But i'm trapped I look at myself in the mirror The girl is barely recognizable She's looks back at me The expression on her face so pained I have to take a double take Is this really me? I push everything aside so I can live this life Still exsist in this fight But I am floating away Slowly decomposing Though blood still runs through these veins I need a new iv everyday just to function I feel like a socket in the wall so appealing Yet no electricity flowing I think in the mists of it all I forgot my true purpose I need to take two steps back to the life I used to have It only took a little bit than but a large chunk now to satisfy me and I wonder why I use to be such a simple girl dellusions overwhelmed me They made me think I needed to change to be happy Change is good I can't imagine where i'd be without it If I didn't make these changes Where would I be? The answer shocks my system 3 feet below my former self lies I sure have compromised to survive