Looking Back Evaluating Judging My Life This Far

Looking back Honestly and wholeheartedly Having to assess evaluate My life up until this very moment and point In time I have lived this far I would have to judge myself In two completely different parts The old me today and and when I was young Because I can quite honestly say Although they are still both me The younger version of me has changed Through age we have become further estranged What interests me now would bore me then Come to think of it I wasn't interested in anything My head was filled with nothing but daydreams Never once did I contemplate a thing about life It's almost as if the lights weren't switched on And I never really realized life was going on Until unfortunately the one day came I looked into the mirror and realized I was in fact no longer young anymore That boy was gone and had left this behind And when I eventually came to terms with it Realizing I simply had no other choice But to grow up and accept it And when I did my priorities changed as well And I suddenly then out of nowhere began To develope and interest in other things I never showed any kind of interest in or liked before And thought I never noticed I had in fact Already somehow taken on board and stored Bits of knowledge and information In my head I hadn't been paying attention to And now my brain is running a mock And has gone from never thinking about anything To being unable can't stop overthinking everything Shameful thing is if this was me back then Things and events in my life Probably would have taken and turned out Completely different and I wouldn't be me Obviously I wasn't and didn't though Otherwise I would have changed And that is the fundamental difference between The old young former men and who I am now But isn't the point of being young Enjoying yourself and being insanely stupid Rather than wasting your youth on Choosing to be responsible and boring Pretending or actually being book wise and smart Which come to think of it looking back Makes so more sense upon reflection now Because the less you know or pay attention Will only serve you so far way more well To enable you to get through And preserve your youthful innocence For as long as is possible Before you have to face the challenges Head on of your own what is later Not to distant in your future to come That unfortunately there is no escaping