Look At Me

May 8th 2009 take a moment —to look at me just one final moment what do you see? when you look into my pain-filled eyes is there darkness? a sliver of light? excruciating affliction crashes over me, do you not see? is there nothing? only a blank, impassive face no significance, no sign of guilt that smolders inside of me deadening my sweltered heart oh how these eyes pour acid rain incessant dripping in the night eyelids red and swollen too miserable to endure on and on that wretched rain will pour until there’s nothing anymore and our cruel silence, that vermin crawling about awkwardly, unyielding invading me dwelling within these withering eyes that you lackadaisically look upon in hatred perhaps or sheer pity gouge them out of their sockets they mean nothing for even the darkness will not blind my heart my love grows on as my expression dies time is our enemy now see how he flies! look at me and don’t utter a syllable simply look it’s the only way it will cease a mere gaze a moment’s peace be the one to clear the clouds the filth… and if you can’t repair my world replenish the damage then by your presence by your life it will blow the toxic waste away and clean up the developed grime that you cannot see i alone have caused my acid rain and without you I am nothing my guilt may devour me but say nothing and only stare gaze in wonder intimately, unfailingly the dripping is already less heavy no longer weighing me down your sun will shine although you’ll never be mine i give in… i accept my eyes glaze over in dreariness, in weariness… they forlornly droop tremulously close stillness overflows —and my heart slowly… with much effort opens at last The Rain Has Stopped