Loneliness

(Alone in a dorm. First Christmas in America) How do I describe loneliness? I feel in my body. I feel in my heart. I feel alone at night on a vast desert Keeping company with twinkling stars above I can not describe its hue I can not describe its shape I can not measure its hardness Is it an emptiness in my heart? Then what is emptiness? Is it separation from people? But monks seem to be content in a temple on a desolate mountain. Is it a want of friendship? But some feel loneliness in the midst of friends I don’t know I don’t know I only know that it is here with me Devoid of shape, color and weight