Living My Hell Here On Earth

I'm 2 days this side of sober With a million more to go I'm ashamed to say that those I love Are the ones I've hurt the most I asked for their forgiveness But it's been lost in the pain I understand why I've been damned And there's no one else to blame I'm living my hell here on earth As I keep on searching for eternity I wonder where I'm ever gonna end up But most of all Lord I hope you still want me How's a man become a shadow Of the one that he dreamed he'd be Are the fallen only lifted up If where they fall is down upon their knees This prison that I'm living isn't easy Cause I live it right here in my mind The only way that I'll find out my fate Is with the cold cold hands of time I'm living my hell here on earth As I go on searching for eternity I keep wondering where I'm gonna end up I'm a shallow man that needs a hand Lord I hope you still want me I'm somewhere just south of Heaven You could say that I live in my own hell This purgatory that's become my life Is Leaving me.... just a soul inside a shell I don't wanna ...go on... Living in this hell