Life's Greatest Regret
I watch the sun fall from the sky
tumbling soundlessly, the horrid quiet deafening.
As I see it touch the horizon, the world burns
and clouds, like kindling, burst into flames
set afire, until their brilliant hues burn to cinder
leaving the night as dark as the frozen embers
that remain, dead weight, filling my breast.
Yet,
the heaviness that’s left is only an illusion
for I am as empty as the
void
between
the
stars.
The eyes that once beheld the colors of life
and the beauty of your smile, now see only grey,
the nothing that
has become
me.
My unhearing ears long for the sound
of your dulcet lullabies to soothe my fears
and I watch you as your sweet lips move
but no melody ensues, no gentle bird songs,
no whispered secrets,
only
silence.
My fingertips numb to the touch of you,
never more to caress your shoulder,
to stroke your hair, your neck,
the soft smooth skin of your long slender fingers.
The desire to feel your hand held in mine
is
but
a
fool’s
unfulfilled
fantasy.
My body remembers the moments that you held me
in the sweetness of your caring embrace.
Remembers,
remembers,
now only vagueness in this fog filled mind.
How
I
wish
to press my lips against the silky softness of yours,
to feel my cheek against your satin skin.
To hear the words
I
love
you
breathed like a soft caress through your gentle smile.
I watch you talk and laugh from across the room,
the occasional glance thrown in my direction.
I wonder what you are thinking.
You made it quite clear how you see me,
what you feel about me.
Where there was once hope,
a tiny grain,
like
sugar,
has dissolved in the torment of ocean that is my tumultuous emotion
leaving nothing,
not even a hint of the sweetness
that I have for so long felt for you.
I lie down in drowsy slumber
praying
that this misery end
in hope that my eyes remain closed for eternity,
but
other plans have been laid out for me;
as again, the sun peeks through the shade of my bedroom window
slowly stealing, one by one, each shadow from the corners of the room.
No sleep comes,
undesired penitence for my blasphemy?
If I died tonight,
would you shed a tear,
would you, like I, share in my life’s greatest regret,
never
having
kissed
you,
or would I be but a nameless face to you in a year?
11/11/2017
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HEARTBREAK AND LOSS
Copyright © James Inman | Year Posted 2017
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