Life

What does a person have to do to receive the pain That I have felt here and again? I don't know what I did but I wish that I could take it back It's like my world is slowly turning black My best friend is drifting away And I don't' know if she talk to me another day Why is life so unforgiving? It's like I am doing more losing than winning I wish I take it all back, what I said, what I did, My thoughts I have to forbid Of ending my life and cutting it short The list of problems is so long you could write a report So I am stuck in this hole I dug And now I am going to hide under a rug