Lies I Want To Belive
my parents
they cried together, they died together.
My brother
alive and breathing,
in the flesh.
my mind
healthy, kind, understanding.
i will get up today.
i will get up and shower,
wash my body under the refreshing water
wash my hair
my body.
i am okay
my hands are steady
my breaths are even.
but these are just lies, you see.
ten years ago marks his death,
two years prior marks the end of something rotten,
marking the beginning of something horrid and scarring.
months go by
as filth collects on my skin
but i cannot be bothered
to wash.
every breath i take
is restricted and cautious
i cannot draw a straight line anymore.
i tell myself these lies to make things better,
but i stop knowing they're fake,
and start think they are real,
that they happened,
or didn't.
they didn't.
they are lies i tell myself.
just lies.
Copyright © Aaron James | Year Posted 2018
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