Lie Once Again

Oh how many times are you going to lie? My eyes are soar From all the times I have cried. Do you like to make me sad? So sad that I can't even smile. So sad that I cant even pretend i'm alright? I'm tired of all the sleepless nights My own voice wakes me in the middle of the night My screams are so loud From a nightmare I've just went through. Its all because of you. You know that don't you? Of course you do. You just pretend not to know. Not to know all the pain All the nights I think Am I not good enough? Is it my fault your gone? Should I just disapear? Maybe then you would feel lost. As lost as I always do. But that's not me. I hate to make others suffer. Or even feel bad for just a glimpse of a second. I guess its how I've come to be. Maybe because I don't want anyone to be like me. I don't want them to feel that pain That pain I feel everyday It never goes away. Just sometimes it fades But then I begin to think. I'm not the only one like this. Some hurt more then me So I shouldn't complain. It's hard though Half the time I don't know how to feel My minds all screwed up But that's all right. When it all gets to much And the voices get to loud I say a little prayer To help me calm down. God if your listening Will you please help me now For I am lost I am wandering about. I need your grace Your strength over me For I am just a weak sheep But with your gentle touch Maybe I can breath a soft sigh of relief. So are you still going to lie? I think you might. You've done it before Even though you promised no more.