Lidless Jar I Once Was

I got you on my mind You got me hooked to you, you're sublime and I am no longer blind By temporary infatuations that were not to be By scary, horrifying nightmares of blasphemy Be not afraid... I'm here... I'm a lighter shade... A hope fear... Human nature won't let me go God's nature tells me to keep going and leave it behind me Running for my life, I head towards the hallway of you-must-pray - I obviously know so All of our natures put in one jar is an issue underrated I see I subside from your side Have a nice yesterday's tomorrow with your tomorrow's yesterday bride You lied in my face, Calling me a disgrace What's wrong with you? When will I leave? What's wrong with me, an atmosphere that refuses to morning dew Why do I grieve? It's complicated The consequences of life got me into mischievous corruption that led to me being jaded Lately, you were on my mind Until time decided to unwind For the time being... Look at the destruction I'm, wide-eyed, seeing.... Looking forward, holding on to the rope of hope, to the future foundation of structuring construction properly without any jurisdiction or reason Give me a section of your redemption I repent of my wrong doings all day long Awaiting Christ's tranquil Ascension I have sent out letters of treasured love to others to...simply...belong! Is that right or wrong? Is this a poetic song? Am I smart or stupid? I have a heart that is slightly broken, but fixable and still has an inner kid that I couldn't rid I'm a jar without its lid Im nothing much when you are everything and more...a priceless, radiant ring You Balanced me out - oh yes you did You made me feel like I can do the impossible anything and-and every single thing I'm jealous of your eyes... Doused in comments of compliments That's what I get from people these days It's relevant and intriguing to the mind as it extends I'm in love with you no lies... I try to be perfect, but flaws attack me from every dead end Those words vanish from my mind in many directions today I try to be good, but my bad boy side intervenes and makes me vent off into rituals I don't attend or recommend It's hard to take compliments, But it's human nature and its oh so overwhelming, TMI nature I descend You ascend I am human... I am a man... I'm strong I belong In God's efflorescent realm and Its a tragedy that got ridiculously reversed In my solitude shell...of beautiful blessings that are acursed Effulgence burns on A billion times a ton I and you welcome the sun Until the son arises from the ground...let the fun begin in the long run - aim at goodness and happiness that is the tender, mouthwatering hotdog to the fluffy, yellowish bun Sleep well...it rings a bell that you're hidden in your shell, but I shan't tell...well... That you've gone away on a Journey to gravity-bound In the well of oh-well...spiraling in this world hell Remembering those moments when we made no sound To my dismay, we must move on to other lands Like absurd birds, we will be out of our cage of crystal clear captivity I recall good memories spent with you, we held hands Like silly dogs, we will be released from our leash immediately You're stronger than you realize We're not alone And I'm not a failure I was once the lidless jar, But now, I have came this far To say that my jar buddy found it from afar He handed it to me with his glass hands and I was a zooming race-car until I hit tar, fresh on the cement! I'm a dazzling star, heating up with rage war