Letter of Dilemma

The letter I regret to read ever Is that I cannot stop reading never. The flowery words that draw me to tears Meant to re-enact the pain of love lost. Was it really a case of love lost? Was the love ever there in the first place? Did we really love each other genuinely? Did we love ourselves more than each other? Did I hate myself so much, so that:- I didn't wanna watch over my heart? Did I listen then to your words? Was I to believe you that much? Do I really need to read this letter, So frequently and as keen as I do? Your letter till now I read over. This letter by no other lover read never. Message of how much you loved me conveyed Silently just before you stealthily sneaked away Words that were meant to fill the vacuum The empty space of your long absence. A silence so loud till now it echoes in my heart. Sounding footsteps of moronic silhouettes retreating Into the horizon to go fill the cavity in my heart. But in silence this letter when you read Does it really fill the vacuum? Does it further dig it deeper? Does it wipe the tears from your eyes? Does it bring more tears to your eyes? Do those words really heal the pain? Do they scrub the healing wounds? Do I even know what I'm writing? Or comprehend what I'm reading? I'm not sure I really do. I'm more confused than I do. I don't know what I know And know I really don't know it. I don't know whether I felt sad Or too glad after reading your words. With your final breath on a lonely island. I loved the sweet way In which you wrote them. Because your very words of love Brought tears to my eyes Instead of laughter to my heart. It's why I will keep coming back These very words to read. Till the day. they give me joy.