Jan Allison Poet Free verse

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Let Me Into Your Heart - Emotive Write

I fell in love with you the second you were born
With light brown hair and sapphire blue eyes
I thought you were perfect!
Over time it became evident that there was a problem 
Test after test showed that you had profound autism
You didn’t reach your milestones like other babies
There was no babbling; no social smiles
only a vacant look in those huge sapphire blue eyes
You were locked in your own little world
just content lying in your cot playing with your fingers
As you grew older you found comfort sitting rocking on the floor 

You hated physical contact; if anyone tried to hug you you’d go rigid
Arms remained straight by your side like a soldier on parade
It’s been so difficult to come to terms with the fact
You will never say “I love you momma” or let me into your heart

Fictional write for Let me into your heart contest
Sponsored by Julie Rodeheaver

08-20-17

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John Hamilton September 14, 2017 at 6:29 PM Such a touching write Jan, must have done well in the contest. Struck me that my wife now reminds me of an autistic child in her own world, soo sad. Thanks for your supportive comments, and for your understanding! Jan Allison September 15, 2017 at 1:32 AM I think I got a 2nd place John but I don't worry too much about placements my list of n/a is growing. I am so sorry you are having such a tough time with your wife it must be absolutely heartbreaking for you. Just keep writing your wonderful lyrics:-) hugs jan xx

Phil Capitano August 31, 2017 at 8:23 AM A beauty write Jan, so easy to relate to this. Jan Allison August 31, 2017 at 10:50 AM Thanks Phil:-) It is an emotive subject and I worked with autistic children for over 16 years. Hugs jan xx

Eve Roper August 30, 2017 at 5:53 PM Nicely done, Jan, enjoyed reading so much truth in your write. ~`* Jan Allison August 30, 2017 at 6:06 PM Thanks so much Eve I know you worked with special ed students so will really understand this poem:-) hugs jan xx

Ironic Zink August 29, 2017 at 2:42 PM Such obvious pain yet not rationally painful as longing for what is unspokenly communicated... I'm reaching but great job delivering as I was sold to the fact that you were this woman... Happy day Jan Jan Allison August 29, 2017 at 5:26 PM Thanks Zinc:-) i worked with students with autism for over 16 years - many had Asperger's syndrome and were in mainstream school with support, but i did do a spell in a special unit where the students had more profound autism and communication was unspoken and that is very challenging indeed:-( hugs jan xx

Sunlite Wanter August 26, 2017 at 11:17 AM Beautifully written to describe such a difficult problem. It helped to educate me. Jan Allison August 26, 2017 at 11:19 AM I worked with Autistic children on both ends of the spectrum Sunlite it is challenging but very rewarding:-) hugs jan xx

Janis Medders Tobechi August 22, 2017 at 10:45 AM Jan, this very truly describes autism. The images are wonderful and I enjoyed reading it. A fave. Blessings, Janis. Jan Allison August 22, 2017 at 12:01 PM Thanks Janis I worked with autisitc students at both ends of the spectrum and was in2 minds whether to post the poem as it is an emotive subject. Thanks for your lovely comment:-) hugs Jan xx

Susan Ashley August 21, 2017 at 8:07 PM Hi Jan, I'm back again to re-read your lovely poem and to congratulate you on your second place win! Well done Jan with talent and compassion! :) Jan Allison August 22, 2017 at 2:44 AM Thanks Susan:-) hugs jan xx

Curtis Johnson August 21, 2017 at 6:11 PM Hi,Jan. Thanks for a very serious and heart-felt write. Congrats on your win. Jan Allison August 21, 2017 at 6:13 PM Thanks so much Curtis:-) hugs jan xx

Andrea Dietrich August 21, 2017 at 3:38 PM What a way to do it, Jan. You found a great approach touching on something that happens way too often these days. Jan, I am so upset. I worked on a poem for this contest but was too late this morning to type it, and now I see the contest is gone. I can't believe I missed out!!! Jan Allison August 21, 2017 at 4:06 PM aww Andrea that's happened to me too recently - just post it anyway!:-) hugs jan xx

Freddie Robinson Jr. August 21, 2017 at 1:01 PM Very soul touching this poem be, Jan. I was deeply moved by it. A sad, yet powerfully emotional poem expressed w/such grace and sensitivity. Pure poetry. Love and smiles always. Jan Allison August 21, 2017 at 1:19 PM Thank you Freddie it is an emotive subject and i was in 2 minds whether to enter it in the contest:-) hugs jan xx

Judy Konos August 21, 2017 at 1:01 PM Wonderful poetry but then Jan Allison wrote it, quite understandable! Cheers! Jan Allison August 21, 2017 at 1:18 PM aww Cheers Judy I miss you my friend and am very touched you came to read and comment on this poem:-) hugs Jan xx

Ralph Sergi August 21, 2017 at 9:30 AM Hi Jan: I was really touched by this poem. Consider the families that have healthy children and take them for granted. I wish you well in the contest. Jan Allison August 21, 2017 at 12:09 PM We all hope our child is born perfect Ralph but sadly it isn't always that way and some children do have issues:-( hugs jan xx

Dale Gregory Cozart August 21, 2017 at 7:20 AM Congrats, Jan! Jan Allison August 21, 2017 at 12:10 PM Thanks Dale:-) hugs Jan xx

Vijay Pandit August 21, 2017 at 6:29 AM Congrats Jan on your big win! Jan Allison August 21, 2017 at 12:10 PM Thanks Vijay:-) hugs jan xx

Joanna Daniel August 21, 2017 at 6:16 AM Knowing such children, I can say it's hard to be in their shoes or their loved ones' shoes, it's difficult, but autism can be overcome. Well explained from a pained mother's point of view, Jan:) Jan Allison August 21, 2017 at 12:11 PM Thanks Jo:-) hugs jan xx

Russell Sivey August 21, 2017 at 5:02 AM Wow! This IS a heartbreaking write but so well written my friend! I truly loved reading this amazing poem this morning! You have enthralled me by your incredible skill of drawing me into you poem and making me feel exactly what it would be like to be a parent of an autistic child! I have a cousin than has Down Syndrome, kinda on the other side of the spectrum...he loves to be hugged and tries to show his emotions at all times, a very good person! This piece shows autism very well, Great Work!! Jan Allison August 21, 2017 at 12:13 PM I've worked with student's with Downs Syndrome and they can be very loving indeed but also with those with profound autism where verbal communication is non existent:-( hugs jan xx

Susan Ashley August 20, 2017 at 8:03 PM Hi Jan, with this fictional write you express a genuine heartbreak that can't help but be felt by the reader. I love the tender gentle insight of your poem. Emotional and lovely. Jan Allison August 21, 2017 at 7:22 AM Thanks Susan I was awarded a second place so I am glad I did put it in the contest in the end:-) hugs jan xx Susan Ashley August 20, 2017 at 9:10 PM BTW Jan, I think it's perfect for the contest. Thank you for your personal backstory. Wishing you Good Luck! Jan Allison August 20, 2017 at 8:12 PM Thanks Susan I worked with autistic students for over 16 years. I spent most of my time with Asperger's students in mainstream school but did spend some time in the special unit with the more severely affected students. It was an extremely challenging but rewarding job:-) hugs jan xx

Lin Lane August 20, 2017 at 7:02 PM You've wonderfully captured the grief of a mother in this situation. Beautifully emotional and sympathetic to the plight of child and parent, Jan. Jan Allison August 20, 2017 at 7:05 PM Thanks so much Lin - a serious poem for a change lol:-) I probably went off the theme in a way but I write from the heart and if i don't get placed I am still happy with the poem:-) hugs Jan xx

Tim Smith August 20, 2017 at 5:39 PM All children bring joy to parents in different ways. The parents of autistic children are true angels. Jan Allison August 20, 2017 at 5:40 PM They sure are Tim:-) hugs jan xx

Emile Pinet August 20, 2017 at 5:19 PM The emotions cling to this piece like a second skin. A little melancholy, with a slow pace that entraps the reader into your emotional flow. Good work. Emile. Jan Allison August 20, 2017 at 5:25 PM Thanks so much Emile:-) hugs jan xx

Vijay Pandit August 20, 2017 at 4:21 PM Quite touching--glad you mentioned it is fictional! Jan Allison August 20, 2017 at 4:24 PM It is fictional for me but having worked with children on the autistic spectrum for 16 years I know there are people who can relate to it:-(hugs Jan xx

Arthur Vaso August 20, 2017 at 3:54 PM Very creative and heartwarming poem, very very touching! Jan Allison August 20, 2017 at 3:58 PM Thanks Arthur even if it doesn't place in the contest I am happy with the poem, it is written from the heart:-) hugs Jan xx