Left Alone Yet Again

You know that feeling, The one you get Filled with pain, And heart break. No, not the one You feel in the Pit of your stomach. No this is the feeling, That grips your heart With complete defeat, And total anguish. I’m left alone again, Abandoned by the one Who truly knows me! Best friends for years, But foremost you said We were family. Fated ad tied, The day we typed hello, In the chat site that saved me. Over seven years. Consisting of an emotional rollercoaster, We’ve laughed and cried, But not once strayed from The others side. Seven years and, The many names I came to call you. Stranger, friend, even Lover to. Soul mates then best friends, Not one regret till your one eighty. Blind sided, I had no warning. Abandoned, left with Discarded confessions, Long talks and shared heartache. You weren’t my ace, Nor my savior. I never once, Asked you to save me. You were never meant to mend me. Yes, i'm messed up. Morals twisted, Wrong choices are what surround me. But they are my burden to bear, Not yours to shoulder with me. All I had ever asked, Was that my best friend, Would stand beside me, Not in front or behind me. I should have known Time and time again, Iv been abandoned by, those I love so blindly. So take you “space” Don’t glance behind you. This brokenness is Just another scare on my heart, Don’t mind me. You get better, in fact Why don’t you just Forget about me. I’m stronger than I look, And despite all this Ill pull through. I always have, not a doubt Inside me. With all my love I’m praying for you. Hope you find what you want. Out of everyone, You deserve it babe. Ill miss you , but like you I’m done. Our whole past, I’m leaving it behind me Buried in a broken graveyard That surrounds me.