Ladder of Jacob

7/11/23


As a new day comes
Had to find out what I'm truly made of
In a world full of fake love
That's the  I hate cuz
One of the reasons I'd take drugs
And always stay drunk
Getting closer to climbing the ladder of Jacob
Already been up eight rungs
All of it paid none

Unsure of what I'm destined
All that's left is butterflies inside intestines
And a pool of water with my reflection
An endless struggle to find connections
Ironic, since there's endless people, it should only take nine seconds
All of it re-evaluted and I question
Just like my life's direction
It often backfired on me, even when having the right intentions
Now I'm learning all kinds of lessons
Dealing with different types of lemons
While the moon dives around seven
Or when the sun starts to rise toward heaven

It all started over a year ago
Here we go 
With this again
They say it'll work itself out in the end
I understand the differences
It's a curse, yet a gift to live
Life's not fair just the way it is

Deep down inside I kept hurting
Thought I was a clever earthling
For it all I remember searching
Found what I didn't want, it's been hectic and disturbing
In the grass snakes forever lurking
None of my methods were ever working
Many lessons I was never learning
Until I got all these embers burning
Now the engines purring
And propellers turning

Although I lost sight of the goal
No longer feeling whole
There's a piece missing from my soul
I'm usually a nice guy, but I'm not in full control
I lose it at times because they often pull
The wool over our eyes after putting us through bull
It all has taken its toll
Time I take a stroll
To the North Pole
I no longer deserve coal
Since I'm not doing the same ole'
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