Kurt Cobain

I was always the first to blame myself For all the hurt and pain I felt A few times I even tried to Kurt Cobain myself But I picked up a pen and these words came to help I'm going to say everything that should be said right now Looking back, I could be dead right now Got told I'd be dead by 21, I'm 25 now, I guess that makes me a success Gave a lot of fight, but I have enough left Broke a few girls hearts, but I didn't mean to do the damage I don't have kids, I hope there aren't kids out there that are mine from girls I had one night stands with But if there are, I hope they track me down cause no kid should Be without a dad Unable to commit to the girl's cause I was too broken hearted and sad Depression had control of me for too much of my life So much so that I became friends with self harm, fell in love with the knife Made myself bleed and laughed But I'm still here, so I beat the past Never been a quitter, but who hasn't thought about it a few times? Being called brainless just gave me a new mind Admitted to being bipolar, self harming, depression & anxiety, how can anyone act surprised by what they do find? Crazy how I got stronger from writing a few rhymes I was always the first to blame myself For all the hurt and pain I felt I'm glad I didn't Kurt Cobain myself Cause times got better, when these words came to help