Kelly

My first that loved me in new ways.
From an A-frame in Arters Mill’s country,
To parties on a Charm City’s river.

Stoned in the rush and hope of our youth,
As memories were cured in crimson and gold,
Certain songs started playing on your radio.

Reminding me of a choice I didn’t want,
And the only thing I couldn’t give you.

Your virtue denied me other excuses,
Leaving me alone fighting the truth.

I kept stalling for change or the right time,
Taking twelve rounds to realize, neither was coming
To save me from hurting you.

Twenty five years later,
And it still feels like a sin.

A Proverb’s woman far above the rubies,
Breaking and keeping those parts of me wishing,
That I had loved you.


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Contest: I love Rock n Roll
Inspired by the song:
‘A Man I’ll Never Be’
by Boston
Copyright © | Year Posted 2014

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Vaso Avatar
April 10, 2016 at 5:24 PM
I was relaxing and decided to go read some older poems, loved this one, certainly words I can relate too, and the band Boston, great inspiration!
Carney Avatar
December 11, 2015 at 2:51 PM
Good work Mr. Carmack. A Proverbs 31 woman, in this day and age, even for a Christian woman, is hard to find. Sorta sad here; wonder what happened 25 years ago. Are several things I regret, and people I hurt. The more I hold on to it, the worse I feel. My Mom, who passed last year, had a great saying "Bless and Release It" I love Rock n Roll as well.....even older than Boston, like BTO and The Guess Who. Thomas
Carney Avatar
December 14, 2015 at 8:48 AM
It is nice to see someone open up and share some personal things on these public forums. Maybe to a close friend? I don't know. To me there is no better place. No one knows the other but by this manner and at least to me it smacks in the face of freedom haters. Glad you know your Bible as well. Assume you are a brother in Christ as well? Don't know many believers who know Proverbs 31 and narrow it further to verse 10 , and through v.31.
Carmack Avatar
December 11, 2015 at 8:45 PM
Yes, Proverbs 31:10. I see you know your Bible. Kelly was a perfect girlfriend, but I was just not in love with her. Even though I was young then, I knew she was one you don't throw back. Sorry that your mother passed away, but she gave you some good advice. God commands us to forgive others and I think that includes forgiving ourselves. Thank you for taking the time to read and for commenting.
Ward Avatar
September 28, 2015 at 1:26 AM
You excel in this write... A FAVE and 7.
Macmillan Avatar
April 13, 2015 at 9:46 AM
I enjoyed this. I could write a poem about you... you are Puck, aren't you? LOL... something in a Midsummers Dream... what yoyos are we, easy toys. I don't argue it. I'm hopelessly flawed. To quick to jump. I try and fail and yet try again. You're making me think. I thank you. LOL... I think? Hope you have a good day, Puck.
Carmack Avatar
April 13, 2015 at 6:06 PM
Yes, I have been blessed with the four. We all have really. Seems 'Puck' is my new nickname, I like it. It would be interesting if that poem comes to you, I would be honored no matter what comes out. You are a very clever woman Cyndi, and I am glad you visited today.
Macmillan Avatar
April 13, 2015 at 4:45 PM
That is a good find. Four. We can live a lifetime and find none. I'm glad you're in the mix. I'm off now, you know, I may just write that poem... I have no idea what will come out once I start writing; I feel like I've seen only half a bird in a bush... it is there, but very private. I'll have to visit more of your poetry. Cheers, Puck. Enjoyed the visit. :)
Carmack Avatar
April 13, 2015 at 2:35 PM
There is always another pawn. It isn't about possession, but only the experience of their kind. It is the Kings & Queens I seek, those I wish to remain. For they are as rare in life as on the board. I have been sipping this soup 7 months today, and in it, I have found four.
Macmillan Avatar
April 13, 2015 at 2:14 PM
You favour none... lol... I see only neutrality (as refreshing as Richard's kindness.) Any strings you have are all your own, to dangle, lasso, knot, loosen or cut, which I sense you do daily. ;) Now, that being said, what happens when a pawn fold her arms, smiles sheepishly and says, "I see. Well played." and off she goes... lol... decides to go rogue by ignoring a rogue? Ha.
Carmack Avatar
April 13, 2015 at 1:31 PM
What a clever comment Cyndi, and a nice surprise. But from who's Oberon's string do I swing?
Dietrich Avatar
April 8, 2015 at 6:29 PM
I really like it, Rob, and I see it got a win in somebody's contest. A big belated congrats to you. Glad I know understand Charm City!
Carmack Avatar
April 13, 2015 at 1:22 PM
Thanking you with hugs.
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February 16, 2015 at 1:14 AM
Hello Rob, Congratulations in Kelly D's contest. Always ~LINDA
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February 15, 2015 at 10:11 PM
Nice win Rob :) SKAT
Holmes Avatar
February 13, 2015 at 5:50 PM
Lovely piece Rob,,and deep too...and thanks for the comment!...Peter
Deschler Avatar
February 7, 2015 at 3:25 PM
I remember this great entry from my "Rock n' Roll" contest and it was nice to see it again. A very expressive piece, Rob. Congrats on the win and thank you for participating!
Allison Avatar
February 7, 2015 at 3:03 PM
Dropping back again with my congrats Rob :-) hugs Jan xx
Meier-Hans Avatar
December 29, 2014 at 12:16 PM
Wow, this poem really touched me Rob. Great choice for Best 2014 poem. Congratulations on your win.
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December 28, 2014 at 4:23 PM
Just returning to offer my huge congratulations for a well-deserved win! Bravo! Pandita
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December 26, 2014 at 10:22 PM
ROB, Awesome Best of 2014 poem, and win.... Congrats.... Linda
Yvonne Avatar
December 25, 2014 at 7:12 AM
Wow, another fine write fron you Rob. Belated Congratulations on your win. Looking forward to more brilliant writes from you Rob. One Last time Happy Holidays.
Mehta Avatar
December 18, 2014 at 5:23 AM
Quite musical and lilting write, congratulations on the win, Rob
Allison Avatar
December 17, 2014 at 1:43 PM
I agree with pandita would make a lovely song - congrats on your win:-) Hugs jan x
Sietesantos Avatar
November 20, 2014 at 2:59 PM
Excellent write, Rob! This should be put to music! Love it! Pandita
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