Maurice Yvonne Poet Free verse

Keep It Real:If I Could Cry

if i maurice yvonne could cry
i’d spread my tears
eternal over your 
( say it, dare to be bold)
naked body
(then she could taste your pain)

but i can’t shed tears anymore
(tell her why)
(you need her to know)
(no i can't she'll leave me)
(get out of my head)
my mind beats differently now

i have seen the doctor
i'm not well...kind of
(you're blowing it)
(can't you see her face)
(quiet i'm trying to think)
it's not like a normal doctor

if i could feel
(you use to. you did)
i would touch you with
the hands of a silk maker
gentle and caring and with purpose.

the doctor.
my physiatrist.
i was diagnosed as bipolar 
(there you got it out)
(was that so hard?)
leave me alone will you
no i'm sorry not you

they gave me drugs 
i don't feel like i use to
not the mountain not the waterfall
(give it a break just speak plain)
(ok yes i will)
i can't cry any more
i have no sex drive
it's the pills

if i...
oh my God 
if i...
i would and more
i’d run beyond to hold you
i would

the pills
they make me docile
you'll laugh when you hear this
because you are always with me
(don't get all mushy with her)
i miss you 

(ok bud you did it)
(let's just move on)
i have no answers, but
i know
what you're feeling
you want us to be romantic

way back
(i can't listen to this)
(i am out of here)
before being medicated
i was passionate 
so very passionate

not anymore 
i'll tell you though
something’s got to give
my god 
something’s got to give.




Maurice Yvonne
September 11 2014

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Katharine Davis February 15, 2016 at 6:51 PM How does a physiatrist fit into this poem?

Lei Strauss May 6, 2015 at 3:42 AM Congratulations on your win! :) Keep it up pal!

John Lawless May 2, 2015 at 7:58 AM OK, is this a discussion between Maurice and Armand? Amazing write, well earned top spot and a must read again 7

John Lawless May 2, 2015 at 7:45 AM OK, is this dialogue between Maurice and Armand?? Terrific write, a definite must read again and a seven. congrats

Tammy Reams May 1, 2015 at 7:16 AM Sorry Maurice. I typed your name as Armand.

Tammy Reams May 1, 2015 at 7:14 AM Wonderful write Armand! Very powerful! Congrats on your win.

Jan Allison May 1, 2015 at 4:44 AM Dropping back with my congrats Armand - an outstanding poem well deserving of the top spot:-) Hugs Jan xx

Andrea Dietrich April 30, 2015 at 11:47 PM Gosh, here i was thinking I had seen all your poems, and I now find this amazing personal write back from Sept. How did I miss it? you are such a fine writer, Armand. Truly happy that you got a first place win with this heart wrenching poem. The last lines OH MY!! congrats on the win.

Mark Ackerson April 30, 2015 at 9:55 PM Not me, Linda! Had my fill of pills. But Maurice, back on subject, great voices and I feel the anguish. Congrats!

Poet Destroyer A April 30, 2015 at 9:12 PM I want some of them pills Maurice, Congrats.................... Luv ~Linda~

Skat A April 30, 2015 at 8:42 PM LOL, MAURICE, did you really write this on Sept 11? That's my aunt's birthday. Anyways, this was ripping it into the new.. thank you for being you. SKAT

Kelly Deschler September 12, 2014 at 12:56 AM Writing allows us to express the things that we could never say. I believe that poetry can be very therapeutic, because it has gotten me through some tough times before. It is like that best friend who is always there when we need them most.... Please keep writing, Maurice. You have a great talent! Good luck in SKAT's contest!

Brenda Meier-Hans September 11, 2014 at 9:29 PM Thank you for sharing such personal info with us. Maurice. You are a great poet above all things and I hope your writing and reading are also good medicine for you. I am amazed of all the hardships people have gone through here. On one side it is good because we all have pain in one form or another and can all support each other.

Poet Destroyer A September 11, 2014 at 3:36 PM Like I said, you can talk the talk.... Nope, I did not hide it here... why look Robin, it's Batman again... :) LINDA Maurice Yvonne September 11, 2014 at 6:20 PM hey batman i can't find it.

Ct Duet September 11, 2014 at 2:38 PM Forgot what I was doing here...got caught up reading the comments....happy hugs Tim Maurice Yvonne September 11, 2014 at 6:20 PM drop in anytime

Jan Allison September 11, 2014 at 12:18 PM deep emotional write Maurice my sis suffers from depression and the meds mess her up - at the moment I can't cope with words from her like 'I want to go to sleep and never wake up' -I've got enough on my plate and want to keep on living. hugs Jan xx best therapy is writing Maurice gets your emotions out in the open and others can relate:-) hugs Jan xx Maurice Yvonne September 11, 2014 at 2:45 PM thanks Jan. you are a good friend.

Liam Mcdaid September 11, 2014 at 12:16 PM excellent piece of writing Maurice Yvonne September 11, 2014 at 1:36 PM thank you Liam.

Casarah Nance September 11, 2014 at 12:08 PM I know exactly that. I was put on meds for anxiety, and for bi, but I like my emotions too much, I need them. I write and it creates a home for them, emotions are a tool, they don't need to be shamed or supressed. and I missed the sex drive, i hated feeling numb to the world. i think the key to not being crazy is to except being crazy and use it the bad times make the good times sweeter, why make all the flavors the same. But anyway, babe you are awesome and I certaintly do enjoy having you here Casarah Nance September 11, 2014 at 1:59 PM You have us if you ever need to talk, Jan is right, we are the best medicine. Embrace your nature, embrace yourself, and you can embrace us, hehehe. one big happy hug. ;) Maurice Yvonne September 11, 2014 at 1:35 PM Thank You for your amazing support. Your words are really helpful you are brave to be so frank and I love you for it.

Tim Smith September 11, 2014 at 11:15 AM If I could only read your mind I would really know what you mean here.....Most excellent my friend...hugs to both of you Jan Allison September 11, 2014 at 12:18 PM And now you have soup friends for emotional support - best medicine in the world Tim:-) hugs Jan xx Tim Smith September 11, 2014 at 11:22 AM Yes I know, I was given some while going through my divorce...I had to stop taking them...Both of us were sad Maurice Yvonne September 11, 2014 at 11:19 AM HAHAHAHA! While taking care of my parents for seven years 24/7, i suffered a panic attack and then many. I am not typical bipolar mostly general anxiety disorder. I feel great but the pills do have a sedative quality.