Just Wont Happen

Went months going all over town, Finally found the perfect gown, But when I looked in the mirror, Compared to dreams, My reality feels inferior, You should be near.. For me to endear, Your stubborn attitude arrests your emotions, Reality you'll never apologize sinks deep in the big blue ocean, Fiance found his suit, I stare and smile, looks so damn cute! I want to call and share this with you, But with you I have nothing to do, You should be near.. For me to endear, Your stubborn attitude arrests your emotions, Reality you'll never apologize sinks deep in the big blue ocean, Collecting addresses from family, Invitations are near ready, Seems to be happening so quickly, There's a damn of tears compiling rapidly, I feared this a long time, Couldn't put my finger on the dime, This is the hardest thing I've had to do, Plan my wedding without you Honestly Im surprised, Thought once you'd hear I was engaged you'd try, Call me to talk, or show up at my house, Your heart and mind are in a constant joust, Hoped dearly that we'd reconnect, So you could help me plan the perfect event, Just wont happen.......... My biggest fear I have to overcome, I can think about it all I want, But when all is said and done, Trying to stay true to what I feel is right, Not sure how, but I refuse to let it ruin my special night.