Just One More

Listen to me the best you can As I whisper hopeless words to you I lay here strong yet so broken Alone in this bed, so dead in this room All I would say is one more, ONE MORE But there were one more too many I wanted to live with few regrets Now I have more than plenty My family cries is it worth it To lose everything you’ve had Like your little girl at home Who says you left because she’s been bad I’m hating myself for this My daughter never knew her mother As anything but an addict Then the more the guilt builds My hands start trembling, I shake I hate it when I leave her but Can’t let her see me this way It was all for one more JUST ONE Just a bit of anything to feel numb Then maybe the tears, screams will fade I’ll change just give me a few more days But deep down I know its my choice of life Death will be what allows me to win this fight I block out my shame with a hit And grab my keys to drive far away Maybe the farther I drive out The shame, the guilt I’ll escape I’m wiping tears from my eyes Remembering all the mistakes That I made while on these highs I feel like I’m about to break My vision is a getting blurred rain and intoxication don’t mix well The sliding of the tires ring What seems to be my farewell I’m drifting farther off the road I hold close a picture of my little girl The only thing I ever did right Was bringing her into this world And it was all for one more JUST ONE Just a bit of anything to feel numb I just wanted the tears, screams to fade I was going to change, just thought I had one more day But this was my choice and it costed me my life Death is the only thing, that has won this fight