Just a Dream

Was this all in my head? Heart heavy, This sinking feeling. Ache, Devastatingly painful, The end is no longer near, It is here. In a blink of an eye, Realisation hits with a force. So strong, I can't ignore, Violently, I am shaken to my core. Waving that white flag, I surrender my control, Divine timing, Forevers filled with smiles of yesterday. Manifest a love unknown to him, I feel so deep. Emotionally unavailable, Still in limbo. Body that warmed his bed, Arms of comfort, Kisses sweetened with love, To him, Only momentary. My heart, you bleed, Forsaken and thoughtless. Should've known better that to trust, Actions of lust disguised with the lace Of affection. Only ever in the moment. Strength, I call you, Disconnect my heart from my mind, So peace of healing I may find. You don't even realise, How you lost me in a second. The penny you dropped, In a single world when I was in it. Shock my heart to smithereens, Clear as daylight. Not sure what I was really. Tears down my face, Burning the pain in streams. Be strong, sweet child, Close your eyes, Breathe. This was nothing, Just a dream.