Joy In Weakness

And here you had me thinking That I was the scum of the earth That you were the Queen of the Night And that you had everything all figured out And here you had me dreaming Of turning back the clock night after night Hating myself more and more Wishing I was strong as you And here you had me screaming Pain in my chest as you clung to another Images of you two sweating your rhythm And with me loathing my own sexuality And now I can only laugh As I find out your truth That you're still the haughty winter princess That flew too close to the sun That you still haven't gotten over a thing That the thought of me happy still tears you apart And so you came back to keep me under your heel While I drank the rain that was your tears You laughed at me for wanting comfort in another And here you are, doing the same thing You cling to the ideals you set for yourself As the Queen of a kingdom of emptiness And this is my greatest joy Knowing that not only am I right But I've always been right And the only one in the world who thought differently was you You were the only one who agreed to abuse me You were the only one to grind my face in the dirt You were the only one to parade your story as fact And ensure that the victim looked like the aggressor The sun hasn't stopped shining on my back Not since I forgave myself for sins I never committed For the sins you paraded as absolute For the sins that weren't sins You're no Goddess You're no saint You're no angel of radiant light And this Falconia isn't your Millennial Kingdom So fly away on steel wings Quench your lust on the body of another Bite your lip and pretend it's love After all, lust is a sin to you, yeah? You're no better than me And you never were, were you? You're stuck slumming it out with your world of prejudice And I'm elated now I'm elated now I'm elated now I'm elated now I'm elated now