Joining But Not Going

I have decided to be more Christian less anything else. A tiny Jesus-voice, or a bug inside my head has said: 'enough is frigging enough.' Since Christians are derided, abused, and killed without even a headline. Since I am not 'saved' and don’t need to be, since I will always stand for the guy with the sweaty shirt collar, the woman who has faith in her womb, the dog under the fat man’s table the individual not the rabble. I have decided to join a church. I am not going, just joining no one needs to know, it will be just my little chapel for one and no one else. And if some intellectual buffoon with a simplistic degree in applied logic derides my secret belief, I will enlighten that pitiful person with a curse horrid enough to make the very devils-own blush.