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Joe

He told me he doesn’t want to be alone
I’m torn because I want to be by myself 
But same time I want to be with him
It’s kind of selfish I know
To withhold this information 
But it surely isn’t my worst sin 

I guess I need to figure out
If it’s my hormones or just destiny
He deserves the best in me
Not to be just another option
I’m really afraid of his sincerity 
Because he says things we shouldn’t speak

You know those crazy fantasies 
That we never admit to have
Things you blame on what you ate or drank
Lord no desire to fess up to being eccentric 
He is a man with a gentle hand
A helper in the land of greed

I know so little of me 
And much of him in comparison 
He is not your average Joe
His smile is like a dozen roses
Inspiring red romance
He keeps telling me I’m here for you

He was hurt at work and didn’t call me
So in fact I’m not there for him it seems
When asked he said he
Had to go through it by himself
This warrior is an ex soldier 
A widower a preacher a leader a emt 
So amazing and he wants me
My caution refuses to leap

Like I said I can’t choose 
Even if he tells me to
Time will tell if it’s worth it 
I don’t want to hurt him
I’m feeling he is freer than me 
And if opposites match…maybe

This is not easy waiting for destiny
I thought it was the California dude
But maybe it’s not him but Joe

Copyright © Karen Jones | Year Posted 2024

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Hilda Greenhough Date: 8/28/2024 7:41:00 AM He sounds like a possibility. Best of luck with romance (but don't rush in). I enjoy this poem with it's winding paths within the mind. Login to Reply Karen Jones Date: 8/28/2024 8:02:00 AM Thanks I won’t. I am very careful.

Gershon Wolf Date: 8/27/2024 7:38:00 PM Wow. What an intriguing dilemma to have. My masculine intuition or radar or whatever tells me this: Just say No' to Joe. Then gauge his reaction. That'll tell you what you need to know. ~ Unlicensed-Counselor-at-large (Unwanted in 49 states!) Login to Reply Karen Jones Date: 8/27/2024 11:11:00 PM For the record Kinte and I haven’t met in person as he lives in LA. Kinte wants marriage and has called since November 2023. Joe lives an hour away and I met him well before Kinte. Karen Jones Date: 8/27/2024 10:36:00 PM Hahahaha! Six months ago I told Joe no that Kinte was the one. Joe was upset and salty but accepted the “friend zone”. Joe has always said he will be whatever I need but he is a widower and says he doesn’t want to be alone. He dropped out of the race so to speak only to come back telling me I am in control that he cares more than I know. Ok I will have my insurance company mail you and Tom for my hourly therapy sessions! Hahaha

Tom Cunningham Date: 8/27/2024 3:34:00 AM It will have to come from you Karen, only you can make that choice, it's a damned if you do damned if you don't situation. If it was me I'd give it a go, you've nothing to lose and if things don't work out at least you'll know. Tom Login to Reply Karen Jones Date: 8/27/2024 4:32:00 AM Hugs Tom