It's Falling

It's not suicide,
it's falling.
Falling hopelessly,
helplessly into that dark place.
The one you've covered up for so long.
The one that is hidden behind your smiles and laughs and rehearsed joy.
For so long you've waited,
everyday only getting closer and closer to the edge.
You cut and bleed, hurting yourself because somehow, 
someway it helps with the pain.
When things are good, they're bad.
When things are bad, they're horrible.
The pain of day to day life can be only so tolerated.
'Till that day when the cutting, 
poking,
prodding, 
and bleeding doesn't help anymore.
And you finally fall.
You slip so effortlessly into that dark hole,
where there's no room for light. 
Nothing but the final escape from that bitter pain.
Freedom.
As it gets darker and darker, you can see the light.
Not a light of something better, but a light that it's all over.
It's like a continuous rabbit hole,
never ending.
Until you hit the bottom and you're gone.
It's not suicide,
it's falling.
Copyright © | Year Posted 2014

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Struthers Avatar
May 12, 2014 at 10:40 PM
Describes suicide in a very beautiful understanding way. Thank you.
A   Avatar
April 12, 2014 at 9:17 PM
Lexy ... CONGRATULATIONS:) on having your poem featured on the soups HOME PAGE. <3 =LINDA
Miers Avatar
April 7, 2014 at 12:24 PM
'man has places in his heart which do not yet exist, and into them enters suffering in order that they may have existence.' Leon Bloy
Pettit Avatar
March 21, 2014 at 9:38 PM
Welcome to the site. I know you will like it here. You are off and running with this impressive very descriptive offering.
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March 19, 2014 at 11:56 PM
lexy:), A nice warm WELCOME to poetry soup. I hope you enjoy the community, as I did when I first join, March 2010. You'll find many friendly poets, who are ready to support and offer positive feedback. I want to be the first to invite you on over, to my contest and poetry page. I OFFER MY CONTEST, in hopes it inspires you to write another poem. I'm looking forward to following you and your poetry ha-ha a special pair:) here's the link to the contest page. http://www.poetrysoup.com/poetry_contests/ <---~Take Care!! From: your new poet friend @-> LINDA <-@
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March 21, 2014 at 9:27 PM
Thank you!!:)
Andresen Avatar
March 19, 2014 at 5:09 AM
- Warm welcome to PoetrySoup,Lexy :) - I choose your first well written poem - Nice to meet you :) - Hope you will be satisfied with our "soup family" - we are many .. but has plenty of room for you too- PoetrySoup Rule1: Be kind and keep PoetrySoup a haven. PoetrySoup is a drama free zone(Comment on the poetry of others and they will comment on yours.) Thank you posted your words and thoughts here, I want to come back to read more another day. - oxox // Anne-Lise :)
Allison Avatar
March 19, 2014 at 2:29 AM
excellent poem very deep and dark and on such a difficult subject.. Jan xxxx
A  Avatar
March 19, 2014 at 2:13 AM
It's a good kind of fall, Lexy, Stopping by with a nice, sweet Welcome to Poetry Soup. I will find much delight, in reading and in time become familiar with your way of writing. But, for the mean time, I will greet you with the same smile, other poets passed when I first join the soup 4 years ago. I wish you the best when it comes to your poems. I hope you get to meet all the nice poets around here. Starting with me. SKAT :-) Please drop a hello and tell me a little about yourself if you like. I would like to be your newest poetry soup "FRIEND". Hugs* SKAT""
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