It Still Hurts

Doesn’t matter how long it’s been It still hurts after 7 months I couldn’t be the friend you deserved So you severed ties You wanted to protect your peace Cannot blame you Seven months later I still grieve the friend I thought you were I failed to be the friend I was supposed to be But your screaming and half truths still shatter my heart I know I ed up But so did you We used to laugh with each other Until your laughter felt like pain You used to be the reason behind my smiles Now you’re the reason behind my sorrows Your compassion was performative So was my masking You called me childish But then you followed up by shouting at me You said I played the victim But you did too I never raised my voice at you once Yet you raised yours at me Your two faced nature Your biggest downfall Your jealousy is cancerous It is malignant You couldn’t handle a dude giving someone else attention So you lashed out on me I tried to be your friend Until my masking began to crumble In another lifetime, we could be friends In this lifetime, we became enemies You maybe six years older than me But I was more mature Despite our falling out Peace and healing is possible You went from being sweet To incredibly sour Like your poisonous ego It brings pains Until you can own up to your ups Don’t expect me to speak highly of you Tell half truths about me? I’ll tell full truths about you Like your heart They are ugly