It Hurts

Sitting alone in the dark forced to do nothing but think to think about how you weren't there you weren't there when I took my first step you weren't there when I said my first word you missed all the 'bring your parents to school' days every little girl had their dads come all except one, me it hurts it hurts to think that you never cared you cared about no one but yourself not even your own kid you weren't there when I lost my first tooth you weren't there for the father daughter dances I made up stories when everyone asked if you were coming I shouldn't have had to do that no one should I try to forget about you but it's hard it's hard to know that all these years your dad is out there somewhere and you ask why? why didn't I have a daddy like the other girls? was I not good enough for daddy? why doesn't daddy love me? did I do something wrong? tons of thoughts race through my head as I sit here in complete darkness listening to only the faint murmurs in my head forced to do nothing but think why daddy?