It Happened

I feel as if I am out of control and so confused. I can't get past the issue, of being used and abused. It happened a couple of years ago, I need to move on. It is hard to start over, when everything is gone. How do I let it go when it surrounds me every day? It is like a roadblock, that ends up in my way. This heavy burden, that I carry around, causes me to stagger, before I hit the ground. I remember all of it, I remember it well. I can't forget, and in this memory, I dwell. Realizing what had happened, was a shock to me. I could hardly believe what the truth turned out to be. There was anger, there was disbelief. I needed to get out, find some relief. The pain that this has caused me, will not die. It still holds me hostage as I watch my life hurry by. I have tried to protect myself from the cold, but it remains frozen in my heart. A heart that already bleeds, so it tears my soul apart. Once, I did what I thought was right, and spoke my mind. But it just stopped there, only denial was left to find. So here I stand alone in this lonely, dark place, All that surrounds me, is cold, empty space.