Is It My Time

Wondering if your days are numbered or coming to an end Who do I turn to for help on who’s guidance can I depend? I don’t know how to feel because nothing has been determined to be certain But I know it’s hard to except that it could be my time to close the curtain Leaving behind my family that I have worked hard to assemble The thought of being away from them all makes me tremble Why must I wait to find out my results why make me suffer Tell me now not in months if I should enjoy my last supper I feel that I have no Idea what to expect in the next year But I am certain that the worst outcome is something I fear I just cannot fathom missing every day I am blessed to breathe I want to hear that it’s in fact not my time to leave I want to know that I deserve a fighting chance to live Even if I have to spend every ounce of my heart to give Let it be known my family my wife my kids are my world How could you destroy me after I finally got my little girl? I beg I plead promise me you will grant me more time Place me at the bottom of a mountain impossible to climb I will show you I can make it to the highest peak And if you grant me health powerful words I will speak I will explain to all to value everyday that they awake And to believe in themselves for goodness sakes So many lose faith in the face of adversity And for the first time that person is me I don’t know how to deal with this type of emotion I am hoping someone somewhere holds the magic potion If not for me please grant me life for the sake of my wife For she deserves to live a very good life Without me in her corner or her not in mine Neither one of us could possibly shine We shine when our van is full of all 5 of our kids If there is an auction who sells life I want to place my bids I will take the chance for the opportunity to start all over My journey may be ending I am searching for a four leaf clover