Is It

I don't know how much longer I can survive surrounded by those that hurt me and lie. Is it considered suicide if you just give up and die? I have never been so alone I thought the cracks in me would begin to heal. But they are reopened daily pain is all I can feel. Is it considered a homicide if they hurt you so badly that you wither away and die? I can't see myself growing old. I can't imagine living so long in so much pain. I can't ask for help, I have no one to turn too. I no longer trust those I thought Would never hurt me. Is it considered living existing while you are dead inside?