Instant Regret and a Dizzy Blank Stare

a broken phone in the muddy dirt a neglected charger hanging on a badly worn clothesline turned down for another loan everything has been cut off or repossessed now all my stuff is baking in the sun in a multilayered line on a very short curb i am sitting in a raggedy chair wondering where to go with some type of next move i am still also trying to find a new job after being laid off from the one i have been at for 21 years with no type of announcement or warning i guess i should have cared more about caring i guess i should have paid attention more to paying attention i guess i was stuck in an imaginary waterfront version of vainglory now here i am......humbled with nowhere to go and not a soul to call with tears in my eyes and an ego painstakingly crushed, i blame myself