Insomnia

The cold chills sting my shivering flesh in the midst of these thoughts, Mixed emotions drown in a bowl of confusion as I turn and toss, In the night I can't sleep, during the day my mind's not here, Step by step into the darkness it disappear Loneliness embraces me as I search for meaning Because most of the times im not winning, I'm screaming Is life a sequence of tragic events, With So much talent and hope fading into realities of regrets How should we justify this evil so random, So many seeds.......hopeless and planted into condoms Where is this place that my heart can call home, Even this wealth that i acquire is not mine when im gone, Beer and sex make me happy in the during.....miserable in the morning, Only when i get on my knees praying, Can I silence the confusion when i  answer to my calling