Inside Out

10/25/2020 I’m on the outside looking in, feeling out of place. You see through my facade, I’m hollow. Stolen parts of me, covered in empty space. Always living with denial making realization hard to swallow, filling my depths with liquor and pills. Pain growing much thicker too numb to feel, When I’m alone the truth keeps scratching at my heels. Choking down the insecurities I always try to hide, Build walls to disguise the fact that I’m breaking down inside. Lost and detached tuned out from what surrounds me, Shackles of the past hold me back as the pain continues to drown me. The truth echoes over and over, Then people wonder why I grew up with a cold shoulder. I feel like I’m struggling for air, Just close my eyes and disappear. Remember what life was like before, A time when I wasn’t engulfed in a psychological war. A sea of emotions that is ready to break the shore. My guards up to protect myself but I ended up in a prison, Shouting and reaching out but nobody ever listens. Inadequacy overwhelms me and seeps through the creases, Been busy pickings up all my shattered pieces. Strength comes from within it is what drives us; don’t cast a shadow on it when times get tough. Dig Deep and push through your trials.