Infamy

Rolling in faster than I can respond Trying to keep up with what’s going on Feels like it’s swirling out of control Everyone wanting a piece of my soul Can’t breathe without someone reporting Can’t write without someone retorting Feel the night wind with watching eyes Accusations, assumptions, blatant lies Hiding in darkened, hidden places Searching the eyes of shadowed faces Looking for those who remember me Who know who I am, who can set me free A fever is burning from deep inside Clouding my judgment, darkening eyes Removing the light that offered me peace Taking from me its sweet relief Exposed as you read the words I have written Exposed as you feel the emotions I’ve hidden Afraid when I touch on the fringes of fame Terrified when you speak my true name Try to live up to the world’s expectations Seeking through truth some real salvation Trying to render what is believed To be the core of who they want me to be Pleasing everyone save my very own self Being all that I am to everyone else A poet, a goddess, a writer, a dreamer An angel revealed, memories linger Waking with passion of stories untold Writing these memories so others will know