Notes About The Poem

Imposter syndrome can be defined as a collection of feelings of inadequacy that persist despite evident success. 'Imposters' suffer from chronic self-doubt and a sense of intellectual fraudulence that override any feelings of success or external proof of their competence

Imposter

His mind is dark,
like a night sky without stars.
Doubt sits upon his shoulders,
poking at his face,
irritating his mind,
interrupting his thoughts,
outrunning his words -
laughing at him hysterically.

Demons slay his self belief,
echoing like mountainous valleys. 
Playing with his insecurities.
Manic voices vibrate in a percussion of shrieking,
like jesters juggling with his sanity.

Sweaty palms and heavy feet,
leave his tongue cemented,
like a block of concrete.
Curtains ascend slowly.
Microphone has no mercy.

Silence awaits,
as audience anticipate.
His petrified eyes attempt 
to ignore hundreds of faces,
focusing at him.

He fumbles and mumbles
apologises and starts again.
Closes his eyes,
to find his special, sacred place.
His hidden spirit roars, as audience gasp.
His soul rises like king Arthur's sword,
releasing the thunder, trapped inside.
Doubt plummets to the ground.
His words strike like lightening,
defeating demons into silence.

Audience applaud in elation.
For a moment he smiles,
but then doubt and demons re-emerge.
Bullying his self esteem,
murdering his short lived joy.

He sits in silence,
wondering what is the point...

Simple Musing
Silent One
25 July 2020
Copyright © | Year Posted 2020

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Crabtree Avatar
November 13, 2020 at 4:43 PM
Stage fright is an awful experience. I can relate. It took me a long time to learn how to cope with it. A great poem, Silent One :)
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November 14, 2020 at 9:24 AM
Thank you..
Haynes Avatar
October 20, 2020 at 7:32 AM
Silent One I am new to your work and am loving it. This is one of my favorites.
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October 20, 2020 at 7:33 AM
Thank you...
Keely Avatar
August 16, 2020 at 12:17 PM
Great write Silent. I know that "fumbles and mumbles" syndrome all too well!
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October 20, 2020 at 7:33 AM
Thank you..
Neumann Avatar
August 16, 2020 at 1:39 AM
I also like the notion of jesters juggling with his sanity. Hapy you copy righted that? Otherwise, may I use it in one of my poems?
One Avatar
August 16, 2020 at 1:42 AM
Yes that's fine.
Neumann Avatar
August 16, 2020 at 1:37 AM
Congratulations. What a syndrome. Crazy and caught in imposing. Many wishes, Kai
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August 16, 2020 at 1:42 AM
Thanks
Mitra Avatar
August 8, 2020 at 8:05 AM
Amazing.....came alive for me.....Congratulations Silent One.
Ifeanyichukwu Avatar
August 7, 2020 at 3:54 PM
Congrats to you Silent one.
Raven Avatar
August 7, 2020 at 7:13 AM
Hi Silent, dropping by with my congratulations on your poem of the week, with this amazing write. Have a wonderful Friday. Your friend always....Mike.
Babcock Avatar
August 5, 2020 at 4:18 PM
I feel many of us can relate to this. Well said on this poem. love phyl
Ball Avatar
August 4, 2020 at 3:38 PM
WoW! POTW for you. Congrats! It's well deserved. You describe Stage Fright aggravated by low self esteem beautifully. Bravo my friend. God Bless, JB
Marcum Wong Avatar
August 4, 2020 at 2:26 PM
The anxiety can get overwhelming. Brilliantly written Silent! Congratulations on your deserving POTW honors. Blessings xxoo
Watt Avatar
August 3, 2020 at 1:42 PM
"like jesters juggling with his sanity", one of many great lines. An excellent choice for POTW, I'm sure many (myself included) can relate to the dread, panic, doubts, empty mind, and insecurities you walk us through in a public speaking encounter. Loved it, a fave. Congratulations, my friend ~ John
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August 4, 2020 at 8:22 AM
Yes, I have found many have related.. Thank you John.
Williams Avatar
August 2, 2020 at 11:14 PM
Congratulations on your POTW, so well chosen once again....Maria Hugs
One Avatar
August 3, 2020 at 9:57 AM
Thank you..
Hamilton Avatar
August 2, 2020 at 8:12 PM
Funny after writing about imposters and monsters I come across this write of yours SO, it is very well said and sadly true especially for entertainers, I do public speaking and the self doubt still creeps in once in a while, excellent write and I see it won POTW also so double congrats are in order!
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August 3, 2020 at 9:57 AM
I think many can relate to this.. Thank you John..
Nicole Avatar
August 2, 2020 at 4:32 PM
"He sits in silence, wondering what is the point..." Words always take flight. Sometimes you have to wait for the right time. Congratulations Silent One, on Poem of the Week. :) Brandy
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August 3, 2020 at 10:02 AM
Thank you Brandy..
Dietrich Avatar
August 2, 2020 at 2:07 PM
Back to congratulate you on POTW. Way to go!
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August 2, 2020 at 2:30 PM
Thank you..
Pandit Avatar
August 2, 2020 at 12:32 PM
You rock my friend--poem of the day and poem of the week! BIG congrats, Silent One.
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August 2, 2020 at 2:30 PM
Thank you...
Kauffman Avatar
August 2, 2020 at 9:20 AM
SO, Congratulations on your POTW! I really relate to this one as a traveling -not during the pandemic - musician. You hit the nail squarely on the head! Another gem in vivid images. It is very visceral - I know those feelings!
One Avatar
August 2, 2020 at 2:30 PM
I think many will be able to relate to it...Thank you
Wanter Avatar
August 2, 2020 at 8:29 AM
Strangely, I can identify with this one. Congratulations!
One Avatar
August 2, 2020 at 2:31 PM
Thank you
Cunningham Avatar
August 2, 2020 at 7:32 AM
Back with congrats on POTW, S. O. Tom
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August 2, 2020 at 7:47 AM
That can't be right...I had it last week... There must be something wrong with the system. I will contact PS admin. Thanks for letting me know
Y. Avatar
August 2, 2020 at 5:56 AM
WoW!Silent, You have penned such a well written and deep write. I believe all been an “ imposter “. Especially when they are growing up and don’t who they are. In they time it’s easier to be someone you’re not. Excellent job. Congratulations on getting the poem of the week. It’s well deserved:-) Alexis
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August 2, 2020 at 2:31 PM
Yes you are right... Thank you
Ball Avatar
July 31, 2020 at 9:49 AM
This self doubt is one of the devil's best weapons. His most favorite weapon of all is unbelief. When you despair it means your faith is gone. Without faith you have nothing left. Great write here my friend. You describe the age old battle well. God Bless, JB
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August 2, 2020 at 2:31 PM
Indeed it is.. thank you Judy
Romios Avatar
July 29, 2020 at 10:46 AM
One heck of a write, Silebt One! Love, Pangie xx
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August 2, 2020 at 2:32 PM
Thank you
Zahid Avatar
July 28, 2020 at 9:15 PM
And you described him and his feelings quite well.
One Avatar
August 2, 2020 at 2:32 PM
Thank you
Roper Avatar
July 28, 2020 at 8:42 PM
Excellent description of the deep emotions of a person
One Avatar
August 2, 2020 at 2:32 PM
Thank you
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