I'M Special Too

I’m not perfect and make mistakes Yes I have a temper and things may break My moods are intolerable; this I agree But why is it so hard to accept and love me? I’m your only daughter a bond should be But we’ll never have that; I now finally see You choose your favorites and criticize me While all I’ve searched for is love from thee I no longer care what you think I am I no longer care; your love has been a scam All I’ve done in life has never been good enough Your motherly caresses; still always being tough But thank you mother for the lessons on how to be a mom I’ve watched obediently; your lack of motherly charm I’m special too mom, although you may disagree I’ve thrown away my longing of an unheard weeping plea One is the golden child; the one who can do no wrong The other is your baby; codependent while feeding him all along I’m the mediocre child; always invisible to those beautiful eyes How could you turn your head in vain, not hearing my painful cries? So don’t be proud and love me for the creation you did make I’ve exhausted all dead end avenues; my need for you was my mistake I still love you mom, even though my heart is torn apart But I’m a big girl now and the time has come for us to depart © Stacy Lynn Stiles