I'm so sorry to those who know me!

[“The only problem in life was myself”] … I’m a huge burden, and I’m able to recognize that. Perhaps it’s my mind speaking, though that is my true perception, and mayhaps unchangeable. No amount of therapy, nor any amount of reassurance can change my self worth; in reality, only I am capable of that. Only I am capable of waking up and truly thinking that I am enough. Only I am capable of recognizing when I am being hurt. Only I can free myself. Many have tried to comfort me, to help me realize that I am sufficient; though it’s useless, so now I speak, and speak of truth-- If you try to “fix me”, you can’t. No matter how broken I am, even if by a little, only I can heal myself. No matter how many reassure me, or tell me that I am worthy of life, it doesn’t matter; only my perceptions will change how I view myself. I could be praised eternally, yet if I never thought of myself that way, I would feel worthless. I could be criticized eternally, yet if I truly loved myself, I would feel okay. So maybe, maybe one day, I will wake up-- maybe one day, I will not only enjoy the world around me, but who I am, and what I stand for. Maybe one day I won’t be the problem.