I'M Not Drifting Away I'M Sinking

"i've been too many days too far away, and i can't change the fact that i'm the same as usual. like the old days, i still tumble over my words. i'm still the same, i didn't change as much as i thought i did. i play all my cards and throw a tantrum when i lose. my feet are sinking more and more but help is the last thing that i want now. i'm scared of drowning completely and i'm scared of being freed. i'm at a dead end with no conclusion of what comes next." 10.06.2017