I'M Fat....Pt.1

Use to be big as a whale, jail of shopping spree's. Too big to feel confident and have a high self esteem. The beam of being accepted , broke a long time ago. Lets go back to when I was small and all was good. Now I'm bigger than a hood of a car. And there you are... a perfect size five but in my eyes, you look like a size one. Done being this way, i want to change. So we aim for the best and let the rest fall into place. The race to thin, before its too late....don't need that last plate. Throwing up what i ate, with regrets of eating it. Not willing to quite and give in. I want to get rid of this double chin. Getting it in, all this fat, into one pair of slacks. Acting like I'm okay but today i crack. Every harsh name i was called is remembered, every piece of food that i touched my fingers form tears, every sugar filled soda, provides a sniffle. Every ice cream sundae, provides a throbbing reality check. Will i stand strong or become a wreck? (Dedicated to every person ever teased for their weight)