I'M Destined To Be Lonely

Once again, against my will, I'm destined to be lonely and walk among the flames of Hell regardless of day or time; my perception of Heaven isn't real, I almost touched it when joy conquered me and made me shout for defeating anger, but it didn't last... and trying harder I became bitter inside! Nothing stays beautiful as it appears to the naive eyes, look for those imperfections that some foolish people hide under their deceiving masks, don't take useless risks; look for true beauty inside, compare it to prized possessions they are never delusional and don't need alibis! Am I ever going to be humiliated by fate throwing despair and delusion at me, denying me my wishes and make them bleak? Can I be hoping to boost up the confidence I seek without pride waning? Once again, I'm destined to be lonely, see others celebrate life, and live out their dreams... while this loner has never felt a minimal joy or seen his sky filled with balloons emitting screams!