I'Ll Hold Myself

I’ll hold myself; I’ll be my own refuge in the night, I’ll wipe my own tears as they fall from my sad eyes I’ll wear a disguise to mask the pain that once showed so transparently, and I will pretend to be someone else that is nothing at all like me I can do anything for myself that I once thought you could do for me; I can be the love in my heart that I so desperately need I can tell myself the beautiful things that I wish for you to say, and I can convince myself that I don’t need you anymore, not now, not ever, not any day I can miss myself; I don’t need for you to; I can miss the me I once knew before there ever was you I can long for the person that I used to be, and not long for someone that inevitably doesn’t care about me I can make myself happy, I don’t need you for that, I can smile just for me and know that it won’t be taken back I can always be there for myself when I need for someone to be, because through loving and losing you I found what it was that I was missing all along, it was me.