If Only, If Only

Like an earthquake With many trembles The pain subsides Gathers and assembles It only currupts I am losing sight I wish she were here So I could still fight Soon I'll go blind I'll no longer see She's long gone Yet right infront of me If only she came sooner Before I went blind If only if only My soul I could find She wants to help Yet it's not the same She was gone too long I went insane For weeks I was lost It felt like years I cried my days away Filled buckets with tears I no longer can feel I no longer can hurt I no longer have energy I am becoming inert If only she came sooner Before I went blind If only if only My soul I could find For my soul is lost Out at sea It may be long gone Or right by me But it and I are not one It has left me alone I sit and wonder If I was ever known I swim with the tide I picture a beach I picture her heart Which I could still reach I see the water No longer a storm I see her open arms Soft and warm I fade from reality I drift into dreams Her comfort still there And everything is as it seems If only she came sooner Before I went blind If only if only My soul I could find